YEP, I'M A HYPOCRITE

As I was sitting in the auditorium watching my kids practice for a November production, I decided what a good time this would be to get in Gods word. Anytime I have to be schooled by the spirit on "my struggle" I jump on it.My prayer was that I be given hope thru God breathed word on "my struggle". Well I was led to Psalm then Matthew almost as fast as I flipped opened my Bible.Psalm 119:18 was the first verse that I read. Open my eyes so that I may see wonderful things in your law.Well after I caught my breath and rubbed out the chill bumps I wrote it down and kept feeding off of His word.I was reading countless piercing verses on holding grudges, judgment and bitterness.After finishing up with Psalm 119, I went back to these 2 verses 66- Teach me good judgment and discernment for I rely on your commands , then 77- May your compassion come to me so that I may live, for your instruction is my delight.Talk about God being in the drivers seat. WHOA. I then remembered a while back a female christian friend of mine, growing in Gods word, asked me where in the Bible is there specific instruction on not taking someone by the neck and shaking them until they could "GET IT TOGETHER" and not judging them so justifiably. She just could not get rid of the extra baggage she was carrying around on judging someone.I pointed her to Matthew 7 . I figured I would read it again myself while sitting in the auditorium. Wow, I was being schooled, humbled,slapped whatever you want to call it. Talk about being a hypocrite. Yep, talking about myself. Without even realizing it , I was being one. I encourage you all who trip out on "not letting go" to read Matthew 7.Read it over and over .I did. So I'm being humbled now and feeling down right remorseful. Hey I told you earlier in a posting that if it were not for judging others and having bitterness I would be a well rounded person. lol. Takes a lot to admit, to an open blog site for everyone to read that I am what Gods word calls a HYPOCRITE. Not to great of a feeling either to confess to my precious Lord that I have a problem with someone HE created. I am a hypocrite and I thru HIS grace I will overcome bitterness, but it takes action on my part.I must take steps to change. So I am putting into practice the 3D points I wrote about in my first post. Pray for me. Point is, we all have struggles right .Don't let yours go so far that you start to believe you can't be forgiven. That is music to Satan's ears. The God I serve is a gracious God. I'm sure HE is sad when I blast others to my husband (BTW he's the best girlfriend I've ever had) . I have to practice by pursuing holiness. BEING THE VIRTUOUS WOMEN I AM DESIGNED TO BE IN GODS EYES IS NOT AN OVER NIGHT PROCESS, IT IS A LIFE LONG GROWING NURTURING PROCESS THAT I AM CULTIVATING BY SPENDING TIME WITH HIM. I am not the only one in creation that was made in HIS likeness. We all are. I hope you are encouraged with every posting you read. Thank you.